Tuesday, July 31, 2007


You have to wonder how often God laughs at your prayers.

That perhaps what you were looking for was right under your nose. Perhaps you simply weren't ready, maybe that is why God didn't make a poster board with a big arrow putting to it.

Everyday I become an even more firm believer in things happening for a reason. A hurt heart, a bruised ego, a failed relationship. It all is connected to something else later in life. I have become increasingly thankful for the beauty that surrounds me.

People like to point out that I'm independent. Although I don't necessary disagree, they do not see the look staring back at me sometimes that is filled with fear, that little girl lost syndrome. I am however learning more and more that it's fading, maybe I never even had much of it, I just thought I should.

How blessed I have become to have another's heart think of mine.

How thankful I have become to have doggie kisses remove days of stress.

How forgiving I have become that a two inch moment has finally ceased from my bitter memory.

How lucky I have become to notice unspoken looks.

How loved I always have been but not learned to embrace until now